our gimmick night hella fun. it’s not that we didn’t tumble into any argument from the moment we saw each other and while we’re together.ehem.but let’s skip the teary part of the story(but darn it!i took tons of effort to apply my make-up only to get washed out for some shallow reason.haha) i was mostly…happy.yes,i was..and still am.i wanna roll over the memory over and over again.
had 4 strong ice(was it 5?can’t remember coz i wasn’t drinkn from the bottle) and 2 jagermeister(this almost burnt a hole in my pocket.haha.dalawang tungga lang!300 na!pucha.)…i didn’t get wasted and I was not supposed to get wasted. A promised made to myself and Weltsch. AYT. I know my limit. I haven’t even reached my limit. Haha. Every time i would go to the washroom,he’d ask me if i can still stand and walk straight or if I want him to escort me…then I’d get up and say, “Ok ka lang?!mas may amats ka pa sakin!Look” turn around and strut my stuff. Haha. Iba talaga ang umiinom pag hindi pagod…magastos kung magpapakalasing.lol.There was a live band playing at Ipanema last night. It was great coz they were belting out my favorite alternative songs - from fuel, bush, pearl jam,dishwala,our lady peace..damn!they all rock!
So there…:) hayyy…let the feeling sink in.
ey ey…you know what? marvin,my long-time-torpe friend, made a testimonial for me the other day…and if you’re gonna read it, you could say that he’s really upset. That was the time he finally learned that I already have a boyfriend. Last Monday he was asking me to go to Tagaytay with his friends on the 24th and that he has plans. But that time he knew, he told me that he might not push it through because everything had changed. His plans changed. He said, “Sasabihin ko na SANA sayo yun plan ko on that day, pero lahat nagbago…sayang.” What?! I didn’t bother to ask what he was trying to say. I felt sad after reading it because I knew, he’s gonna start to inch his way to some distant place…anywhere…away from me. Awww…:(
You should start getting used to these things. What he is doing is really a matter of respect for you and your boyfriend. You have your special someone now and, theoretically, he is all you need. He alone should be able to fill in the void left by the loss of your male friends.
We really couldn’t blame them. And don’t blame yourself. It’s really hard to understand but that’s how things go. I, myself, might have done the same had things not turned out the way they did. My friend (you know who he is) tried to do just that but he just couldn’t bare to go on with his life knowing he somehow “abandoned” you. We couldn’t leave you alone because you told us you needed our friendship and during those “hard times,” we have proven that you were right.
So, here we are, staying on as your friends as long as you want to keep us.
I intend of keeping my promise to remain your friend forever. You have my word.
comment by Weltschmerz — August 20, 2004 @ 4:13 pm