After a While
by Veronica A. Shoffstall
After a while, you learn the subtle difference
between holding a hand and chaining a soul,
And you learn that love doesn’t mean
leaning and company doesn’t mean security,
And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts
and presents aren’t promises,
And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up
and your eyes open
With the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child,
And you learn to build all your roads on today
because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans.
And futures have a way of falling down in midflight.
After a while, you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much.
So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul,
Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure… that you really are strong.
And you really do have worth… and you learn and learn…
With every goodbye you learn.
i first came across this poem during high school. This was pasted in ghi’s organizer with a picture of a sunset. And I find it really beautiful…so today,I stumbled upon it again and thought it might be necessary to post it here.hehe. Hope you liked it. Hmm…gosh,it’s been a while since i last received a bouquet of flowers.wah…I miss getting real flowers(not that some people give me fake ones,nah,it just comes in singles.hehe). The last time someone gave me flowers was about a year and a half ago…and it was even from an unsuspected someone that I hardly share a few laughs with. Wow. It really caught me by surprise. Hehe. Really. Some may find it corny,tacky or whatever…but I find it really sweet. Nyak. I also love getting chocolates along with flowers.Bwahaha.All the baduy stuff. Adds up to the Kilig factor. Weehh..so nagddrama na naman ako?Di ah.I just miss the times. The corny times. The time when guys don’t get embarrassed bringing a whole bunch of roses, opening doors for you, dropping by your house early in the morning, letting your parents know where he’s taking you for dinner,…..wahh…and all those stuff.haha….damn.
I’ve been spitting the word/expression “DUH” for the nth time already. It started with a conversation with boyfriend early this morning.
I said, “Kaya nga nagtext na ako ng “gudnyt” kasi obviously,matutulog na ako.Di naman na ako nagpuyat e.Duh.” Then, he started teasing/annoying me by finishing sentences with “duh”.Hay..nainis ako.Hehe.
Oh well, yesterday was just great. I spent the whole afternoon talking and smiling to myself. I turned into a loner mall-rat again. But I had fun. I bought stuff for my own and for my brother. I was really hyper active that day. When I don’t like the fit of the pants, i would toss it out to the sales lady. I kept complaining about the damages and folds on the fabric and kept asking for a new stock(pero isusukat ko lang naman muna.hehe) . One of the disadvantages of being “small size” is that, you hardly find yourself a perfect fit of the style you want. One of the advantages though, is that, you can find it in the kids’ section with a cheaper tag price. Bwahaha!:) Not having the exact design that you have in mind, but equally cool..erhmm,fashionable. But well…I guess it must be my lucky day, because I didn’t have to go to the kids’ section. I got myself a pair or flood pants/denim bermuda shorts(as I call it..arte noh?hehe) in the ladies’ wear!hehe.Size 25!perfect!:) Haha!:) I also bought a top and it was…really gorgeous on me.haha! Jeez, puro na lang ako tawa ah.
*growl*…oopss,my tummy is already complaining. what the hell?! I just remembered that I wasn’t able to eat breakfast and lunch..and now is about 3p.m.(just had my 3-hour Sports Journ prelim exam.BUMMER!) and I’m getting dizzy…argh.I’d be dead any minute.I can’t sacrifice my natural tendency to eat for a boring literature lecture. So i’d skip it.Hmm…gotta grag some grub to keep me sane.hehe.Laytah!
erk..the sun finally hurt my eye.Well, it’s better than acid rain on my face.hehe.:)damn,friendster!i was posting something and the server suddenly went f**ckin’ dead.so i had to log in again…but no luck.it’s their “maintenance” day.Oh well,nothing to do but view some pix and surf…what am i gonna do after this?nadah,got no idea.Maybe go out with myself?hmm…I got two exams tomorrow.haven’t “absorb the info through osmosis”.haha.em gonna literally slump on my seat and sleep on my books when i get home tired.if my feet would have the urge to draf me somewhre…hmmm,gotta get my bro a gift for his bday next week!:) adieu!
