for the time being…there’s a chill of sudden realization of utter helplessness running up and down my spine. i am tired. one hundred and one percent on the money.
oh my…i feel paralyzed. thoughts now running to either side of my head and pulling it apart. i can’t conjure up one bit of a soothing image (the best beaches in the world or my fairy tale coming to life) to calm my emotionally-tensed-up muscles. that sounds redundant, but who cares?
am i living a perfectly normal life?
maybe. i would like to think that i am. but i can’t really say. after scavenging every sliver of broken memories and summoning the buzzing life i once had, everything messed up once again. And i’m back to where I never wanna return to. Never imagined this double espresso’s palatableness could be much worse. I forged on to drinking up this bitterness despite the fact that I really don’t gulp any of this kind (caffeine). I wouldn’t have minded anything, until I remembered how it should taste.
I spit on my snow white tank top. I won’t have time to wash it out at once. Now it will leave a dull yellowish stain for sure.
