“Maybe, in some distant place, everything is already, quietly lost. Or at least there exist a silent place where everything can disappear, melting together in a single, overlapping figure. And as we live our lives we discover — drawing toward us the thin thread attached to each — what has been lost. I closed my eyes and tried to bring to mind as many beautiful lost things as I could. Drawing them closer, holding on to them…knowing all the while their lives are fleeting.”
-Sputnik Sweetheart
You can [probably] say that I’m the kind of person who never quits at quitting time…(I agree Bestie, sometimes it can be a curse). I’m simply someone who would keep on knocking on a closed, ignoring door as long as I am convinced there’s still something there and it would open up for me - even with the longest silence, the endless sleepless nights, and even with the angry forces tearing me apart - I’ll have my turn to shut my door in your face…when I’m ready…I’ll give you up.
“For every little thing you hold on to, you gotta let something else go…”
I’ve been playing this game for quite sometime now and I’ve always expected to win each time, but right at this point, i feel no greater than a sore loser trying to figure out what the hell is wrong.
Anticlimactic as it may sound, but this is how it must feel to drop from the highest heaven to the core of the earth, to lose all your strength during a battle and be left with no choice but to surrender….to fail on your own fucked up expectations…to disappoint yourself. Je completement debil.
God, it takes a lot of courage to look this gutless.
Pweh!
itchy throat, swollen eyes, throbbing heart…what a mess.
just got home from french class and old spaghetti house [yummy!]. Aww, at least I gave myself a treat after the tedious hours of trying to perfect my french accent.whew!tongue twister talaga!hirap!never knew that learning to speak in french could be such a chore!damnit!by the way, we’ve had our first short quiz.I got 6 correct answers out of 10.yey!I tried!
huyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!
I gotta go now…the mood suddenly changed.
darn, ang sakit naman ng biglang tumugtog na song…
apektado na naman ako…boom!sapul!
hay…feeling “in demand” naman ako ngayon…bwahaha!
Late yestersay,I got a job offer from ProQuest Publishing — day after I produced a beautifully-written(I didn’t make this comment.haha) article for *toot*. They said they got my number from *toot* and that’s how they were able to contact me. Napapakinabangan pala ang pagka ma-PR. Haha.. Anyway, I don’t know if I want to be a part of ProQuest Publishing. They’re looking for a full-time business reporter (hello,abby’s world!haha). I’m not even “very” good at it. Plus, their office location is actually farther than I expected. The editor won’t quit texting me. I told her, I’m out of town and will be back on Monday. That’s the time I’ll have the time to get back to her. Oh my God! ang feeling ko!pansin niyo din?! Paminsan minsan lang to! For all i know, binarbero na naman ni Ms. Mel yun…at kung ano anong kasinungalingan pinagsasabi. Na magaling ako at walang katulad.hahah! Di naman ah@?! haha.
Well, it feels really great when the job looks for you…when you’re not seriously looking YET. And you’re just bumming around the house and you keep on receiving offers that you intend to ditch because you’re just not up for it at the moment.
Sayang nun, one would say. But I have my own reasons for refusing. I just wanna do something different for now. Magseseryoso din ako. Di ako tamad. You’ll see. I know myself better.
Overachiever? No, count me out. It’s great to be different, to have a plan…to dare to dream.
Ikain na lang muna natin ‘to!
Pakasarap muna!
This was taken at Kitchen with Leeanne and Ghi.
Mas masarap pa ang tubig kesa sa cranberry and lychee shake! Ackk!
yum! grilled salmon in oyster sauce ain’t that bad.
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