i feel so…awful!!! whatever that’s happening to me today is utterly unacceptable. I’m transmorgifying(huh?i know there’s such a word) into a murderous creature. I could strain these eyes any minute.
To encapsulate the feeling that’s eating me up…this should do it. Anyone who knows this song, will you sing it for me…please?
Fix You- Coldplay
When you try your best but you don’t succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can’t sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can’t replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
And high up above or down below
When you’re too in love to let it go
But if you never try you’ll never know
Just what you’re worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I Tears stream down your face I promise you
I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.
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What is fair when nothing’s right? How will you know what’s fair, when you don’t know what’s right? Do you know what I’m getting at?
I’m a convoluted piece of a schmuck.
“you’ve got to get better, said, it’s all in your head, we could live through these letters or forget it altogether, see the months they dont matter its the days i can’t take when the hours move to minutes and i’m seconds away, just ask the question come untie the knot say you won’t care, say you won’t care, retrace the steps, as if we forgot, say you won’t care, say you won’t care, you try to avoid it, but there’s not a doubt and there’s one thing i can do nothing about…”
i love taking back sunday’s new american classic.can’t put it off in my head…it keeps playing…i keep it playing.i’ve had their 2004 album since last year and i just found the time to crank up the volume and pay attention to every line of every song…wow,it’s so brutally pathetic, stoic and magnetic to my own flipped out self.:D
my Kuya asked me what’s on the movies, i couldn’t answer because I don’t know anything about what’s coming up or now showing. See? I’m outdated.hehe…I suddenly realized I’ve ceased being a movie/gimmick freak all week and since the last.
I’ve already started drinking milk every morning. Wow, I can now tolerate LACTOSE!haha…well, di na ako umaasang tumangkad pa, but I need calcuim!:D Wala lang…just wanna share it with you.:D
Argh! I wanna see a movie! Tara?!
okay,i gotta make this quick.
what a day…i tagged along with ramil this morning to the company where he wanted to apply and guess what?I ended up applying as well. Nyax. Took an exam, passed it. Had an interview, stormed out. It was hella hot day and what was I doing wearing 3/4 polo? Haha. Lolo Ramil just informed me yesterday about it and begged for me to come with him. “Apply ka na rin!” So there, that’s about it. Everything turned out okay. But I don’t know if I’d ever get my ass back to that creepy place. Geez! I can’t possibly live in silence! The building was unbelievably empty, screaming soundless, suffocating. Wehehe… All those rooms must be sound proof. I could only hear myself gulping saliva (eww!) at the hallway (if you call that a hallway!God!). The way I decribed it, you might think that it’s not really much of a place. But hey, it has four floors, lots of doors, cozy sofas, graphic-designed wallpaper (or laser paint spray?!what?) and dead people (whoa). I mean, I wouldn’t be surprised if I saw dead people there. Haha….
Life…
you take it or leave it.
