Scribesmeister v4 (In Zero Gravity)

“…malabboooo…na ba ang linya sa ating dalawa? helloooo…gising ka pa kaya?”
i’m listening to the song over and over again until not a single tune gets left behind my mind except this one.haha…i’ll teach my students this song.they’re gonna love it (no,not the song) when i start crooning and screaming to their ears.hahaha… aww, approximately just 20 more days and they’ll be out of my sight. BUt I don’t want to!wahhh…ang hirap ma-attach talaga.well,kung malungkot man ako..kasalanan ko na yun.i had let myself feel this sort of fondness towards them and I don’t know any other way to stop it. Again, i love kids. they’re just irresistable.:) Leche, I’m getting all wrapped up in sadness already. I just had my last day with one of my students, and parting was really the hardest. Fuck, when will helplessness move past me? Right from the start, I knew that this was not going to last…but knowing that makes me enjoy and make the most out of every minute. I was giving a piece of me to them each day and vice versa. All those times we spent talking and hanging around were the highlights. There was no place for boredom. Everything was so fun. Hay…ganon naman talaga dapat diba? When I’m with a person I always see to it that they’d have a good time with me. I don’t want to see anyone sulking. I always want to seal the moment with a smile.

Argh. I’m surely gonna miss them..so much. Hay, they’re never that far.
I’ll see you in the next twilight and it wouldn’t be just your imagination.

“I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken — and I’d rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived.”-Margaret Mitchell

Have you ever felt so broken even once in your life? You don’t know what’s keeping you from being whole or what’s stopping you from putting yourself together… Something hinders your every action and drops you to zero again… and somehow, you have this slight inkling that it may be just…yourself.

Lintek.Ang gulo!

“In this world of change, nothing which comes stays, and nothing which goes is lost.”

Losing is not a skill…

I remember my friend Mickey saying,”you’re always full of thoughts” when we still used to talk. I’m always thinking. I think too much. My mind goes on forever even when I’m talking or sleeping. Hehehe. I love stressing myself out until I get all mentally used up. So, don’t wonder if I say strange and off topic stuff..don’t conclude that it’s just my way of changing the subject.=p anyway….what else?

oh yeah, i love my job! I love teaching kids even if it gets head-splitting most of the time. I still find it very rewarding even if I work until 7pm. I just wanna be with those kids. Feed them and play with them. Yeah, i bring them food everyday! It’s nice to share it with all those gobblers! I feel good really. They’re also my stress relievers. Antok lang talaga ang kalaban ko in between classes. Ayaw ko pa naman nabibitin ang powernaps ko. Hehe. Anyway, they are very nice. They give me food such as candies and “karettog” and korean air pens.:p Syempre, di mo na rin maiaalis ang pagkamakulit ng mga yun, but it’s tolerable. As if I’m not makulit myself, sa akin pa nga sumusuko e. Hay…I could imagine myself having kids and pampering them. I think I can handle that. Mahal ko na nga mga yun e…as in. I’m surely gonna be sad when they’d be going back to school this March. I don’t think I would renew my contract by March. Hay…ang sweet, tripper, and cool nila!:D Unlike my former work which was also short-lived, I wanted to give up on the first week already. But in my current work, I’m looking forward to each day. Hay…nageenjoy talaga ako.:) Be happy for me!:P