I’ve decided not to renew the registration for my tag board…to have another tag board.If you have anything to react about or say to me, you can always drop a line to my comments page. That will at least let me know that I actually have readers (an audience). But somehow the feeling of being unnoticed is turning out to be a good one for me.
“The worst way to die is to be ignored” I’m not sure who said this line, but it sure left a good note in my head… I picked it up ages ago, and I still remember.
Grr. If I asked you to kill me, could please just ignore me? 
I remember what I told *bleep* last night:
“Pwede bang tigilan mo na ako? wag mo na akong kakausapin pa…wag mo akong tatawagan o i-te-text…basta, wag kang gumawa ng kahit ano para hindi ako masyadong mahirapan. If ever I coudn’t help myself and I sent you a message out of impulse, ignore it. Wag mo akong replyan. Dahil, pagnarereply ka…nawawala galit ko at nagiging okay ako.”
(how could i be more stupid? I shouldn’t have said that last line.)
I think it’s easier to walk away if you have a strong feeling of anger or hate or simply “inis” towards the other person. Pag ganon kasi, nawawalan ka ng reason para mag hold on…right? But just one word from that special person, melts everything away… I know that if you really want to hang on, nothing will stop you from doing so. And if you wanna let go, you will look for all the reason in the world to loosen that grip.
iwan mo man yan, di ka magiging masaya dahil kakainin ka ng galit…at hindi sa taong yun,kundi galit sa sarili mo. Dahil di mo alam kung ano ang dapat at hindi dapat. Ang tama at mali.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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I dreamt that I tear up a page (that page) in my journal and gave it to “Disease” (ahahaha…this is the first time I laughed in 2 days.Okay, disease would be his name.how on earth was i able to come up with that one?)and screamed at him. Well, i couldn’t remember what I said. But my face was full of emotion. My dream was in sepia color. Ganda nga ng effect e. Hay…ka kulay nung mga pictures na nahanap ko sa baul.;p
dati, kung hindi ako mamamatay.. mamamatay na lang ako at iiwan ang mundo through not talking and ignoring other people. yun ang solusyon ko dati.. siguro hindi naman completely na hindi na ko magsasalita pero.. onting imik onting oo.. pwede na.
comment by margarita — March 19, 2006 @ 11:44 am