Unang Araw :: Sugarfree
Sadya ba talagang ganyan
Palakad-lakad ka’t nakatungo
Sa’n patungo?
Ngayong wala ka na
Kailangang masanay na muling nag-iisa
Sa’n ka na kaya?
‘Wag mo akong sisihin
Kung minsan ikay hanapin
Ito ang unang araw na wala ka na
Ito ang unang araw na wala ka na
Nasanay lang sigurong nand’yan ka
‘Di ko inakalang pwede kang mawala
‘Yan na nga
Nababato, nalulungkot
Luha’y napapawi ng singhot
At talukbong ng kumot
‘Wag mo akong sisihin
kung minsan ako’y iyakin
Ito ang unang araw na wala ka na
Ito ang unang araw na wala ka na…
almost 4:30 a.m. barely 10 mins.
tumigil man ang ulan o hindi…
uuwi na ako.
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i really can’t say anything. as in, until now i’m still trying to figure out what i felt and infinitely feeling after the lightning finally struck me dead. Carbonara makes me choke. The interiors of my house makes me cringe. God, I can’t keep myself from falling apart. I really want to force a smile. Well, I could stretch my facial muscles for a grin, but it gets stiffer everytime. For the first time I didn’t feel guilty for telling Vj that I’m really upset and depressed that a person in my life has left. And that I feel empty. It was just a good thing that he sympathizes with me. But it doesn’t feel right at all.
Ah, stop. I don’t wanna go beyond the words that couldn’t explain the circumstance I am in.
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Okay, maybe someday I’d be able to fill you in with what happened or with my thoughts at least. But, let me start collecting myself first. 
