I didn’t want to budge, but I have to stop denying…
“OO na! Nalulungkot pa rin ako…at di ko alam ang rason.”
Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. I promised and I broke it.
I initially wanted to write something light, something that won’t get any of my readers down…but I f***** can’t! I wanted to try to be funny like the person I am outside this shell for a change. Actually, I have somehow succeeded in my previous entry. Less drama and more of the usual updates - but it always goes back to feeling this way. Feeling like myself again behind these walls.
This is my favorite time of the day to get all drenched in melancholia. A venomous spider must have gotten into my system to tear me down. Right now I’m folding up and I don’t know what part in me that should take over.
Emotions just swallowed me whole. And I can’t fuckin’ breathe! I want to curse this feeling. I want to push it away but it doesn’t leave me alone! This palpable tension of truths and lies in me is almost about to break out - I need a releaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
-Timed out-
*bakit kaya, andaming nalulungkot ngayong araw na ‘to?*
hello! may tanong ako, pagmalungkot ka isang gabi, umiiyak, kung anu-ano ang iniisip, tapos pagnakatulog ka, at pagkagising mo, malungkot ka pa rin ba? or medyo lighter na ang dating?
comment by macky — May 18, 2007 @ 2:28 pm
it depends on the reason why you are sad. if it’s the kind of uncategorized sadness like i have right now, itusually goes away in the morning…and i can honestly say that i feel better when morning comes. but i don’t know…when i have a really big problem that i haven’t shared to anyone yet, i almost don’t want to wake up anymore.haha. really. because i don’t feel better. i feel worse than yesterday.
comment by Sarj — May 18, 2007 @ 2:33 pm
madaming tenga na makikinig sa iyo.
:D
comment by macky — May 18, 2007 @ 2:53 pm
thanks. hindi ko pa nga lang matukoy. anak ng hayop……haha. di bale, sooner or later, maisusulat ko rin yan dito
comment by Sarj — May 18, 2007 @ 2:55 pm
oissssst! badminton! bonding! para di na malungkot!
inuman! lets go!! tayo nila bheng, riz, etc. 
comment by Joni — May 18, 2007 @ 3:38 pm
teka..di naman thursday ngayon ah…friday na,,:p
comment by reah — May 19, 2007 @ 2:23 am
hahahha. di pa rin nakakalimutan ang thursday na yan ha. reah, hindi na yun ang dahilan - for sure!
comment by Sarj — May 19, 2007 @ 9:50 am
Ano itech? Badminton na! Dali!
comment by romela — May 19, 2007 @ 10:19 pm