Having my tummy stuffed with choco sundae, fries, ham, omelette, and an extra hot shawarma from Behrouz, my system switched to lethargic mode again which somehow urged me to find something to banish my contagious boredom illness.
If you’re curious about your past life and would like to get fooled by some Javascript generator, you’ll get this:
Bingo!
This may explain some of your life choices so far… I do not know how you feel about it, but you were male in your last earthly incarnation.
You were born somewhere in the territory of modern North India around the year 1100.
Your profession was that of a wise oracle and sorcerer.
Your brief psychological profile in your past life:
You had the mind of a alchemist , always seeking new explanations. Your environment often misunderstood you, but respected your knowledge.
The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation:
Your lesson is to study, to practice and to use the wisdom that lies within the psychological sciences and in ancient manuscripts. With strong faith and hard work you will reach your real destiny in your present life.###
I just typed in my birth date and voila! an instant interpretation popped up on my screen. It’s not much, but I wish I got longer details.
This reading didn’t surprise me at all. Do you believe me now? I told you I was a male specie in my past life. I don’t think I need to show you any more proof with that. Haha. Wait, when will I ever learn about my real destiny? I’m getting impatient. Grr.
And yes, let’s not forget my daily Horoscope!
“On Thursday there will be a New Moon in your sector of health, work and your daily routines which could see you leaving your current employment in favour of something far more suited to your talents. You will also have oodles of energy to meet any challenges that you will probably encounter today.”
Hahaha. You know what? A few hours back, a friend was telling me that I should leave my current job (and I do think so) for something which would suit me perfectly. In verbatim: “You’re perfect for this job!”
I really don’t know what I’m thinking right now. I just know I have to get outta here fast, but not in a snap. No, not just yet. First reason: THE BILLS!
Checklist (Month of May):
*Globe HP Plan
*maxed out credit card
*posh desktop pc
*pending DSL installment fee
*utilities (electric and water bill)
*groceries
I’m finally making use of my Math. Taking much time on budgeting and cutting back on my monthly expenses, I still have ZERO savings! With all these due and pending payments, I can’t imagine how I manage to pay for everything. And oftentimes, I amaze myself on how I handle my own money. I will tell you the secret once I have figured out how it works. Would you believe that I can still even afford to watch a movie, down a couple of beers, buy other stuff and to treat people out with my miniscule amount of money? And people think that I have never been broke when I am always checking my accounts and looking for loose change in my pockets. Haha.
Since I started working (roughly 2 years ago), I swore that I will never depend on and demand from my parents for financial assistance or allowance unless they’d offer me something (it even came to that point and i refused not because of pride but I know that they need it more) or except when I can’t even buy a rope to hang myself with. Haha. When I ask for “support”, it means that I am already miserable. Living miserably, that is. I have learned to live within my means. Wala akong luho (except food, and yeah some cheap gadgets). The stuff like facial treatments, spa etc are freebies from rakets. Almost all of my clothing and accesories are from the generosity of my parents (hindi nila ako tinatanong, kinaawaan na lang talaga nila ako.haha) and thoughtfulness of my friends. I buy needs, not wants. Hmm, does it mean to say that my new tankini (which hasn’t been used) is a need, you may ask? Of course it is! It is particularly for the need of beautification. Right.
It doesn’t mean that just because I am not purchasing this or that, I can’t afford it —ano akala mo sa akin? super pulubi? Haha. It’s just because I know that my money could barter for more useful stuff that everyone could benefit from. I have become selfless, indeed. And all those artificial things don’t make any difference with the way I look or I should be, after all. So what the heck? Well, although there are some people who judge you by the brand you wear, why should I care? I don’t need object-oriented nerds around here! Eww!
Next problem: travel expenses for the coming months.*racking my brain*
Aha! I thought of a solution! Risk spending money! Haha.
Cebu Pacific is offering their Go Fares once again! I only have to shell out Php999 (exclusive of applied fees) for one way ticket until May 20 and you’d be able to use it from July to September! Weeh! 
A plane ticket in hand is enough to give me motivation to save up and drive me to hoard rakets, I guess. 
So,what’s your say?
Goodbyes are not always painful - I agree. It’s not even the hardest word to say. The hurt and difficulty of forcing the word out of your mouth, only arise when you have to say it to someone you care about, someone you love, someone who’s given you a hard time sorting out your feelings. How you dread the day that it has to escape your lips.
In some cases, you may want to get rid of a guilt and you say the word as if it is a feather that should land on a face without inflicting pain. And the one who takes it in, clears his throat and leaves, doesn’t break into tears. He continues to walk until the broken pieces fall, he tries not to mind at all and never looks back. All the while you thought, it was nothing to him and that he’ll get over soon. You didn’t realize that you just ruined someone’s life forever and the pieces will never be put back together.
On the other hand, there are goodbyes that seem to indicate something but actually mean nothing and vice versa. So this leads me to classifying the different types of goodbyes.
1. Gestured (non-verbal) Goodbye - a wave of hand, a slight tilting of the head to either side, peck on the cheek or simply a playful wink. What does it usually hint at? Nothing. More often than not, there wouldn’t be any noticeable hesitation and you’ll meet again the next day.
2. Momentary Goodbye - you talk about it over dinner that you’re going some place else that isn’t in the neighborhood and you won’t be seeing each other for a while for sure. Thing is, you know the real deal here. The communication is still open if you need anything important. Among friends, this happens when someone takes a break and goes somewhere and promises to be back soon. Between couples, this is commonly referred to as the “cool off” status. This often leads to a break up, I know. But this period gives you enough time with no one but yourself. Without that special friend hanging around you everyday or your fill-in-with-your-favorite-pet-name cuddling beside you on a boring Sunday afternoon.
3. Pendent (unsettled) Goodbye - this follows after a big fight or just a plain misunderstanding. You won’t talk to one another and infinitely wait for the other to apologize. Unless no one starts talking and reaching out, the silence will continue and the days will keep coming to an end without a sign of squaring off. Thus, this marks the beginning of the falling out phase. You will eventually forget the other exists and at the moment you remember, you’ll wonder what the hell happened. Then the wound would start to bleed again.
“For the most time, you won’t remember the last time you kissed the one you love. That’s because you never thought it would be the last.” - Grey’s Anatomy
4. Definite Goodbye - spoken with finality;taken unwillingly and yet, no matter how heartbreaking this ending could be…it has to be said. It HAS to be forever. You don’t take it back, you don’t expect you’ll meet again and you find a way to move on. Fate may only be responsible for letting your worlds crash into a communal space and share the same air again - if it was meant to happen at all. This goodbye will get you nowhere but in the atriums of the heart, recesses of the mind or in either the transitory or dysfunctional memory of the one you lost.
Goodbyes sometimes last in perpetuity and that’s the saddest realization that finally dawned on me. An irrevocable step that neither time, nor distance could ever change. A result of decisions made in a faltering attempt to change the course of living, to gain freedom and to let go of things that aren’t made for me.
Until I come up with my own meme to pass on to my friends, I would have to get busy answering this one first. Hmm, list at least 5 blessings you have received and precede each with few substantial details. Here goes mine…
Out of all the blessings that God has given me, I believe that these are the ones that I am most thankful for.
*Though I often get into unlucky circumstances, I consider myself as lucky to have a family who supports my dreams, helps me get up each time, loves me dearly and continues to breathe for me when I’m running out of air. They became my crutches when I lost a leg.
*I know he doesn’t want me talking about this, but my brother, a kidney transplant patient, has managed to go through his critical year without irreversible complications. Yes,we will continue to spend more and more for his pricey lifetime medications but all of us are certain that we’d all rather be broke than be living without him. I really admire his calm attitude amidst the chaos. He wasn’t like me who always feel the need the curl up into a ball and disappear.
*I am blessed for all the reasons I could find to believe that God ultimately exists. He always tells me where to look when my eyes become tired from searching. He uncovers the truth when He knows I can already take it. He pounce on me, gives me pain and makes me cry because He knows, that I always remember what He taught me: how to be unyeilding.
*I am still staying in my current company. A blessing that only few people would understand. I have come up with a plan. A plan I have carefully thought of and I know it isn’t too late to shift the gear. For one thing, I still need to be here for one of my biggest dreams to come into fruition. No, it’s not something that I owe to the company, it’s something they owe to ME. I think it’s about time to indirectly benefit from them while I’m still here. So you see, everything has its own reasons and it matters. And whatever happens, nature has its way of course correcting things. I will know, in time, what I am presupposed to do.
*Talking to people who really knows you and your life is uplifting - even when you don’t exactly tell them what’s bothering you. You are doubtlesly tired of me praising my friends, but I would never stop thanking God for these people. Broken things do mend itself. I was fixed with the absence of customary corporeal handling.
-the end
Before I start tagging, I thought I’d share you this quote I got this morning. How apt for the topic.
Things you must be thankful for:
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Worries at the start of the day. It means you’re still alive
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Headache at the end of the day. It means you can still work hard.
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Clothes that don’t fit.It means you have a good appetite. (Yes!)
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The mess to clean after a party. It means you have friends around you.
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Roof that needs fixing. It means you’ve got a house/some place to live in.
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Taxes to pay. It means you’re not unemployed.
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Heartaches. It means you love selflessly.
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Too many text messages. It means you are remembered much.
Voila! I’m tagging Macky, Ruben, Seish, Kelly and Tannix.
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