Scribesmeister v4 (In Zero Gravity)

And you really want to know why I feel this miserable? Because this moment made me realize what I’ve been missing and will be missing. You made me remember how painful it is to say goodbye whether or not it’s going to be forever and how hard it is to move on…to get used to not having you guys around.

This is the side of me that hardly a handful knows. As if most of my actions are purely theatrical, everyone would agree that I can always pull it off behind the smiling mask I put on for the audience. But these are my real friends, who would probably take a little risk every now and then to get involved in my chaotic life.  Believe me when I say that only the worthy has the guts to dare being close to me.

And to you, to all of you, as a sign of deep gratitude…here’s a ticket to hell. When you get there, I guarantee that you’ll see me at my worst, we would share the same amount of pain and suffering and there would be salvation if you can endure spelunking with me for the way out of that pit. I don’t mind being disappointed. I never expected much. I give credit for trying and I greatly appreciate that. For those who are still willing to stick with me, I guess this is the right time to tell you that the only key out of hell is to find someone who nurtures your growth, who puts off the flame when you’re burning and someone who gets the courage to defend you in despairing times…

That key is you. I couldn’t thank you enough.

And a teardrop falls, soothing the pain down my face with a streak.