Scribesmeister v4 (In Zero Gravity)

Wondering what I’ve been up to lately? Well, I couldn’t say much about that. It doesn’t mean to say that I can’t disclose it to the public, it’s just that I think it wouldn’t mean anything to you. But if you insist,okay, I’ll tell you… Haha. Hmm, to cut the story short, all I ever do since I quit my job (that was just a week ago) is to make the most out of my FREE time. Damn, it feels almost heaven to own your time, live by your rules, sleep and wake up late, come to near oblivion about what goes on outside my harmlessly chaotic world.

So, what have I been busy with? Hmm…

I started cooking some recipes again which only I could eat because of it’s unpalpableness. Just kidding! You should taste my home specialties, you know. Well, it doesn’t get served for free though. Sorry. Haha! Or you can try to be nice and see if it works. Oh, and I have regained my normally incredible appetite. (rummages through the cabinets and fridge for food) What?! It’s almost empty. Need to shop.

After a long while, I’ve finally managed to finish reading two books and I am currently on my third - the one which I bought from Powerbooks aside from Edgar Allan Poe’s and Pablo Neruda’s poetry collections. Damn, I have to catch up faster, have to lessen spending hours in front of this monitor.

It’s such an accomplishment to be able to go through the day without answering phone calls, replying to text messages or without going out to party. I turned down 3 party and get together invitations last Saturday. I just couldn’t go out. Why? Because I was designing the third version of my website layout (I need some help with the coding so maybe I’ll upload it by the end of the week) and I was redesigning/customizing my new blog(this is a less personal one. I call it experimental, even.Haha) And just in case you don’t know this about me yet, once I start doing something, I can’t leave without wrapping it up. I can’t stop until I think it’s done. I’m always determined to finish something, especially if it totally interests me. There are exceptions of course, like doing manual website submission. Cripes!

Okay, so I wasn’t ignoring anyone. I was just busy with these things. Don’t worry, I won’t get stuck in this forever…in fact, I’d be more busy come September. Haha! No, really…I don’t know how it’s going to be. I’ve finally accepted the job and I’ll be signing the contract later. Now I keep praying for God to guide me with my decisions and I hope this is the right one. I’ve thought about this for quite a number of times. Sometimes, thinking about it keeps me up. And eventhough I am still confused with what I really want, I chose what I believe is best at the moment. Why not give everything a shot, right? I could take the risk which comes with every great opportunity - but maybe it’s not my time yet. God, please give me the answers at your own perfect time. Patience. I have to wait for another chance.

You know what? It’s almost hard to believe that I’ve been working for 2 years already and I am still not contented with what ever I have accomplished. I still feel clammed up in a shell, trying to find a way to get out of it. I don’t want to rush things, but I am getting impatient - I am not getting any younger! Well, I know there are no short cuts in life…but am I walking the right path? I could choose freely which way to go, but my instincts tell me another thing - always with all the precautions. I am a very decisive person (it’s the truth, I am not bragging. Haha); it is impossible to regret this. Be positive, Sarj. You are one step closer and before you know it, you are just one step away from the dream.

I don’t really care if the journey would take longer than I thought, I just want to make sure that I’d be at the right time and place when I reach the end.

Time moves fast - I need to keep catching up. Time for relaxing is almost up.