Scribesmeister v4 (In Zero Gravity)

While I am sitting down thinking how I would make this day productive despite the earlier letdown I had this morning, a question springs up from my head…

When do people start to care?

Is it when a few compliments are given and some harsh words are filtered out? Or is it when you caught someone saying something unpleasant about you then you make a conscious effort to prove them wrong? Or…

…is it when you get used to the comfort of hearing a familiar voice responding to every comment you say and suddenly you realize, everything you hear is just an echo of your own quaking voice because in all actuality - no one’s really there?

No one is really there…but is this enough reason to be bothered about? What would you rather find distressful? Is it the fact that you finally cared or the realization that you are alone? For someone who has gone to the point of indifference, what does really matter now?

Maybe I had been selfish to others or that I had been cruel to myself for not giving myself a chance to get to know sadness well. Yes, it is cruel to deny yourself of feeling a negative emotion - you are simply being unfair. Sadness should be on a mutual level with happiness. It shows you care when you embrace both, when you stop acting indifferent towards either of it.

Now, since I already know how to care…when do I start NOT to care?

Rather, how?!