You know what reeks? It’s when the weather is so fine while I am not. You want to get out there and have fun, but you are just too weak to move a muscle and it even hurts when you do. Frankly though, I’ve never felt this wretched ill before because it was more than physical exhaustion and when I say it’s more than that, you get the drift.
Aww, I hate missing people. People come as swiftly as they go and even if you’re almost getting used to it, it pays to take some time to train yourself to detach in the easiest possible way. But whatever I do to master the art of letting go, it’s still like a piss in the wind! Although I swear, I am not going to let these emotions and thoughts take over me or I’ll go cuckoo before the last minute of this heartbreaking song I’m listening to ends.
Okay, I’ll quit blaming my confused senses on my chest and muscle pains, sore throat, chronic sneezing jag and dry cough. I just do feel that everything hurts but my hands that couldn’t get off the keyboard when I was actually wishing that it froze up for a moment to take a break. In that way, I would have a perfect excuse not to communicate how slushy I’m feeling at this hour of the day. But with my hands I feel spontaneous about everything…especially when the only way I could get these pent-up feelings out is through a crappola of uncensored writing!
And before I could stop myself from saying more than what I intended, let me give you a trivia.
Do you know that last July 27th was the 2nd year anniversary of my single-blessedness? And thank goodness I didn’t act like a total klutz when I realized it! haha! 
You know what I did?! I celebrated with the whole family and lastly, gave in to a a gallon of ice cream to top it all off! Honestly, I suppose that’s what gave me sore throat plus singing Mr. Big’s Just Take My Heart at the top of my lungs! 
Well, I don’t know…but I’m pretty sure it was not depression that get me to acting crazy because I’m like that ALL THE TIME. I just know that my malady started with a gallon of ice cream and a song that I crooned with my heart out!
Now that we’ve got to the bottom line, I’ve decided that what’s happening with me right now isn’t as bad as I thought. If this is the price I had to pay for a few hours of happiness, I wouldn’t mind paying double the next day…if I only could be happier now. As in right now. But I guess the only thing that could make things better is to get a gallon of ice cream and someone to share it with. 
