Today’s realization:
You don’t gain any exclusive right to your dream until you make a move to struggle and fight for it.
It doesn’t mean that each time you conjure up a brilliant idea, nobody thinks the same way as you do. The brilliance you’ve found is up there where you could see, floating in the air, exciting every brain neuron and twinkling faintly in the eyes of the ones ready to own it in an instant - and you are just one among the hundreds, millions, gazillions and beyond. Then you wonder when you could just f*cking stop staring as others seize it. How do you get the shackles off your feet? Are you waiting for a miracle to happen, to be saved or risk your life trying?
I want to be unleashed. But freedom isn’t always a good thing, is it? Ah, why do I keep asking rhethoric questions? Do I honestly believe this would help you untangle the knotted spool of thread to get you started knitting your future? Most probably, I do. Things could always work out for anyone, it’s only a matter of believing.
“It comes down to the fact that you supply the blue, and they supply the other colors and mix them with your blue, and maybe there’s some blue left in the painting and maybe there isn’t. Maybe there wasn’t supposed to be any there in the first place. So have a little fun, make a good blue and walk away.”
This is my space, where I rest all the emotions needing care. Inside this thinly layered delicate bubble, fear is not present to shake it. I feel safe in this comfort and surprisingly, nothing have succeeded bursting my bubble yet. You can try, but I assure you that it’s going to take more than sarcasm, indifference and hate to blow it up. 
Ah, can you still remember Newton’s 3rd law of motion? Where it has been stated that for every action, there’s an equal and opposite reaction? That forces always come in pairs and result from interactions of objects? Each time something pushes you forward towards the direction you’re headed to in a linear world, an opposite force pulls you backwards to achieve your end goal. That means both forces are necessary to eventually help you realize your purpose. Without the other, all efforts would mean nothing. This is why power is always associated with force. If you’re disabled to do anything, you gain no power. But for me, being powerless is only a state of mind as well as the opposite. If inner forces in me and outer forces around me come in pairs…what happens if these forces come into collision one day? Where will it get me? Would I still wake up standing in my place if I close my eyes as I let the battle commence? Shall I resist or succumb to it? But the most important question is, will it still matter then?
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