I bet, a few moments later, my brothers would barge in again and tell me to get off my computer and watch some movies on TV. When I won’t leave, they would smirk and yell at me over their shoulder “Oh, come on! Forget about your online life for a while.” And I would try to find some powerful words to retort, only that I couldn’t. In the first place, they have always been right. I was supposed to forget about this. I should be happy that my slow speed dsl provider constantly reminds me that I am wasting my precious time here - I should take a break and let loose. I should be cathing up with everything offline - and isn’t that one of the reasons why I resigned from work? Isn’t that the point?
But as always, I always find a reason to justify my actions. I go online to communicate with my friends, to stay updated and make use of video tutorials for my planned software self-study. I can’t get away from this! Or maybe I can, I just don’t want to…yet.
And because everything seems to revolve around the net, sometimes blocking off real social interaction, people try to make the connection between individuals and their interests, more real than artificial as in computerized simulation - just to have someting to fill the gaps. I don’t know with you, but what makes this thing complicated is not dealing with it, but learning how to live without it.
Hell! I cannot even content myself with talking via im, sending and receiving updates via twitter, photo sharing via flickr or photobucket. Cannot content myself with an almost-real substitute for physical absence. And then I try to stop feeling despondent for a second, thinking that I am not alone in this, thinking that there are a lot of people who suffer the kind of loneliness where you can only imagine things being real. Well, in fact it is real…existing yet still missing.
Anyway, I’d rather stay in this virtual reality where most of you guys live in - than not being a part of it at all. Well, I’m thinking…I’d still have a lot of friends around just in case the glorious WWW explodes and vaporizes. Haha. 
So what if you miss watching TV and hate logging off? I’ve found an alternative for that…
