Ah, can you still remember Newton’s 3rd law of motion? Where it has been stated that for every action, there’s an equal and opposite reaction? That forces always come in pairs and result from interactions of objects? Each time something pushes you forward towards the direction you’re headed to in a linear world, an opposite force pulls you backwards to achieve your end goal.  That means both forces are necessary to eventually help you realize your purpose. Without the other, all efforts would mean nothing. This is why power is always associated with force. If you’re disabled to do anything, you gain no power. But for me, being powerless is only a state of mind as well as the opposite. If inner forces in me and outer forces around me come in pairs…what happens if these forces come into collision one day? Where will it get me? Would I still wake up standing in my place if I close my eyes as I let the battle commence? Shall I resist or succumb to it? But the most important question is, will it still matter then?

But you’ve got too much to wear
On your sleeves
It has too much to do with me
And secretly
I want to bury in the yard
The grey remains of a friendship scarred

It’s resurfacing…all the words I’ve lost to you. I thought I already had it known before that day robbed me of all my strength to become completely honest with what I feel. I may not have the right to say this and may never have the chance to say it straight to your face - but this is far from what I have hoped for. I don’t even think I’ve expected to much from this - I just let things be, don’t I? And all you did was to avoid what confronts you.

So why do you make me stay? When you know that…

…I do not stay to be ignored. I do not speak to be interrupted. I do not say the truth to be ridiculed. I do not walk towards you to be pushed away. I do not let go to be burdened with more guilt.

I did not choose to become your friend to be treated like a threat to your existence.

But do you really know what goes inside my head right now? I highly doubt you do, yeah, why would you have to give a damn?

Do yourself a favor, pull that plug and let me go down the drain with all the memories you left with me.

I mean it and I am not saying that just because your chosen course of action is beginning to enrage me - it’s because I’m feeling the need to let off some steam before I explode into pieces you could never hold together without hurting yourself.

Due to my utter disappointment and hopelessness in every horror movie I watch…

…can anyone just, please, kill me? And don’t just leave a mess that marks the end of my life, for Pete’s sake! Don’t make your mission pointless by not letting everyone know why I have to die. Oh shit, has movie directors/producers really lost their artistic sense?! Generally, American horror movies are crap - really! I just keep hoping it’ll get better but it doesn’t. That’s the reason why they always attempt to reinvent ideas from Asian horror movies. Argh! I should’ve known just by looking at the dvd cover. Apparently, the saying “simplicity is beauty” doesn’t apply to it anymore.

You keep reaching out to me yet I feel
nothing in your hands, but the coldness that burns
and you pretend to be numb and overlook
that one season in our lives was all it took
to decide whether we want to be under the sun forever
or walk through different seasons until it’s over

But you run towards winter too soon
before it catches up on you,
So you hang in there freezing in time,
dying to become someone new…